Troubler Why Do You Trouble Us?… a Pastor’s lament for a backslider

Oh Troubler, why do you trouble us?

We had just talked to you, we thought you were doing better…

Why did you take your eyes off of Him who comes to us in the midst of every storm?

What did you see, when you gazed at the Babylonian garment?

What misery was so great that you were willing to sell out,

just to relieve it?


Foolish one, why did you stray?

Did it work put for you?  Are you better off now?

Now, that we who love you are made miserable?

Wouldn’t it be better to suffer than to sin?

Which is worse, suffering or sin?

Which is the cause and which is the effect?


Hider, why did you hide from us?

We would have kept the vigil with you through the long , painful night

We would have prayed with you and staved off the evil One,

One day at a time, “Each day has evil enough”

But it is not good to be alone my brother…


Achan,We don’t want to go on without you…

We are worried about you brother…

but we worry in all of our prayers for you …

Why did you let us down?

If one suffers don’t we all? If anyone of us sins, don’t we burn?

Now we remember

how painful it is to love someone,

to hope for something better,


We all hoped against hope for you, (We still do)

But this fall is an offense…a stumbling block and a burden…

Now we remember, how bitter death is

in all of it’s forms…

truly the wages of sin is death…

When you sin, we all die for we are one…if one suffers…all suffer


Troubler why did you trouble us?

What were you looking for when you went out from among us?

Admit it,

Did you think you could grab for yourself

some of the solace once found in the garden?

Were you going to force your way past  the flaming Cherubim and take for yourself?


I mourn for you my brother

I remember by the fire at the lake,The men of Christ gathered around you,

they prayed and sang hymns

as you were born again

unto a living hope…

You called upon Jesus,


Remember that we told you once,

That the mercies of the Savior, are new every morning?

(Haven’t we sang that in song, time and again?)

That should you fall a thousand times, get back up,

Even in prison, or as they say ,(The ends of the earth)

“If you seek me, you shall find me, if you seek me with all of your heart”.

How could we disown you? (Never)


We are not ashamed of anyone who sins,

as long as they return…

We know, brother, none of us are far from defection,

Could it be that this trouble and pain is what it might take

to finally bring you to the One who has loved you Brother?

to Him who Has washed you of your sins in his own blood?


Forgetful One, we call you to  remember,

If God marked iniquities, who could stand,

but with Him there is forgiveness,

that He might be feared…

Troubler, All does not have to be a loss-

Just remember the thief on the cross!

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7 Responses to Troubler Why Do You Trouble Us?… a Pastor’s lament for a backslider

  1. Did you write this Pastor Bill?

  2. Daniel wasserman says:

    Greetings Pastor Bill. I am really pleased to know that there is still a Pastor that cares. God Bless you,

  3. A much needed modern psalm, my brother

  4. DMarie says:

    The ‘cares and pleasures’ of this temporary world…. such a draw/temptation for us all!!
    Especially as things get worse – what a greater temptation to ‘hide’ in things that cannot save but make us ‘feel better’.

    Oh Lord, help us remain in YOUR goodness, choosing to focus on what is eternal!!

    We can not make it in our own strength!
    We must thank the Lord for one another – and receive wisdom/help from those who love us….
    and from the Comforter and Teacher Himself, who does not allow us to be tempted beyond what He provides an escape for…. but, we much CHOOSE the escape.

    We must fight the enemy with The Spirit and The Word (the Sword)… as Jesus did!
    Resisting the devil so that he will flee. ~Oh, Maranatha!

  5. Rita Lindhag says:

    Awesome Pastor Bill! I’m hanging on to this one. Is it okay if I print it out for myself to keep?

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